Insomnia

Insomnia...  never really knew what that felt like until the accident.  Sure there were days before but they were few and far between, where I didn't get any sleep in one night...  but lately, even with a sleeping pill I just don't seem to sleep.  I was awake for 22 hours yesterday, and now it's 12 AM.  I feel sleepish, but I'm not sure if I can actually close my eyes and sleep.  It's horrible.  The body needs sleep to heal, and here I am not sleeping, so how on earth can I heal.  My physiotherapist said if the insomnia continues I will be heading to the sleep clinic!  ARGH!!  I can't deal with this right now.  I just want sleep!!

So tonight, a sleeping pill has entered my system.  I don't know if it will work.  In the past, it doesn't really put me to sleep any faster, but it makes me sleep once I get there. I was told when sleep comes for me, I am supposed to take it.  But, sleep, you have forgotten me.  I will write a poem...

I'm laying in my bed with a heating pad on my back and one on my neck.  I'm not sure what comfort feels like anymore.

Insomnia

Clock ticks, hands move
eye lids blink, never lock shut.

darkness evolves into light
sun went down, sun comes up.
still no sleep.

energy, called a second wind, consumes me
only to be deflated a few hours later

signs of mental exhaustion poke their nasty heads out
go away!  Silence..  is all i'm asking for.
Head be quiet..  be calm

eyelids are heavy
mind slows down
finally the sandman will arrive
sleep overtakes me!
Joy

Rosealee Lagace, Feb 23, 2012

Happy birthday MVR III

I'm crossing my fingers for a wonderful sleep...  I hope.  Good night all